{"id":6432,"date":"2017-08-16T00:00:00","date_gmt":"2017-08-16T00:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/jam-news.net\/az\/m%c9%99n%c9%99m-samir\/"},"modified":"2023-12-13T14:13:00","modified_gmt":"2023-12-13T10:13:00","slug":"m%c9%99n%c9%99m-samir","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/jam-news.net\/az\/m%c9%99n%c9%99m-samir\/","title":{"rendered":"M\u0259n\u0259m, Samir"},"content":{"rendered":"

M\u0259n\u0259m – Samir. Ka\u00e7ayev Samir. Bu da h\u0259yat\u0131mda yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u0259n uzun m\u0259ktub olacaq h\u0259r halda. H\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131 yazma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015facam.<\/p>\n

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1994-c\u00fc il mart\u0131n 6-da \u015eamax\u0131da do\u011fulmu\u015fam. Atam dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r ki, h\u0259min g\u00fcn anam\u0131 bizim k\u0259ndd\u0259n \u2013 \u00c7uxuryurddan rayon m\u0259rk\u0259zin\u0259, x\u0259st\u0259xanaya apar\u0131blar. Bibim atam\u0131 s\u0131namaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn deyib ki, \u201cay qarda\u015f, yen\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131n oldu\u201d. Ax\u0131 m\u0259nd\u0259n \u0259vv\u0259l bac\u0131m vard\u0131 \u2013 S\u0259bin\u0259. Atam da \u201c\u015f\u00fck\u00fcr m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259tin\u0259, q\u0131z olub, lap yax\u015f\u0131! M\u0259g\u0259r q\u0131z \u00f6vlad deyil?!\u201d dey\u0259 cavab verib. Sonra bibim etiraf edib ki, \u0259slind\u0259 atam\u0131n o\u011flu d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259lib, y\u0259ni m\u0259n.<\/p>\n

D\u0259c\u0259l u\u015faq<\/span><\/h2>\n

Deyil\u0259nl\u0259r\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, yaman d\u0259c\u0259l, vuran-\u00e7apan u\u015faq olmu\u015fam. \u018flim\u0259 \u00e7ubuq al\u0131b a\u011faclar\u0131n budaqlar\u0131n\u0131, g\u00fcll\u0259ri q\u0131r\u0131b-t\u00f6k\u0259rdim. Anam onlar\u0131n da canl\u0131 oldu\u011funu, q\u0131rd\u0131qca canlar\u0131n\u0131n yand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, a\u011flad\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 ba\u015fa salanda \u00e7ox m\u0259yus olmu\u015fdum.<\/p>\n

Amma \u0259n sevimli m\u0259\u015f\u011fuliyy\u0259tim hara g\u0259ldi da\u015f tolazlamaq idi. Qon\u015fular\u0131n p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259rini az q\u0131rmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Bu \u015fak\u0259rimin d\u0259 ax\u0131r\u0131 \u00e7ox pis olmu\u015fdu. \u00dc\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131m, bibim\u0259 ac\u0131qlan\u0131b \u0259lim\u0259 ke\u00e7\u0259n ilk da\u015f\u0131 ona v\u0131y\u0131ldadanda. Aln\u0131 \u00e7ap\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, qan ax\u0131rd\u0131. \u00c7ox qorxmu\u015fdum, n\u0259n\u0259m\u0259 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131m ki, bibim\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k el\u0259sin. S\u0259bin\u0259 yurdda [torpaq sah\u0259sind\u0259] i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259n atam\u0131n yan\u0131na qa\u00e7d\u0131, m\u0259har\u0259timi x\u0259b\u0259r verm\u0259y\u0259. Atam ev\u0259 \u0259lind\u0259 \u00e7ubuq g\u0259ldi, anamgil\u0259 dedi ki, siz q\u0259ti qar\u0131\u015fmay\u0131n, sonra da \u0259ll\u0259rimin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7ubuqla bir-iki el\u0259 vurdu, bir daha da\u015f atmaq n\u0259di, da\u015f\u0131 \u0259lim\u0259 alma\u011fa qorxdum.<\/p>\n

H\u0259l\u0259 m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 getmirdim, atam h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 i\u015f g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc, m\u0259n d\u0259 \u0259l-aya\u011f\u0131na dola\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m. Ax\u0131r\u0131 atam bir \u015fill\u0259 yap\u0131\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131 ki, \u201c\u0259\u015f\u015fi, \u00e7\u0259kil d\u0259, mane olma\u201d. \u00c7\u0259kildim, sonra da dedim ki, \u201cata, vaxt g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k, m\u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u0259c\u0259m, s\u0259n is\u0259 qocalacaqsan\u201d. Soru\u015fdu ki, \u201ch\u0259, n\u0259 olsun?\u201d Dedim, \u201conda s\u0259nin m\u0259n\u0259 g\u00fcc\u00fcn \u00e7atmayacaq, g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n d\u0259 o kuvaldan\u0131…\u201d Atam da qay\u0131td\u0131 ki, \u201conda y\u0259qin anlad\u0131n, s\u0259ni niy\u0259 vurdu\u011fumu. \u00c7\u00fcnki bilir\u0259m, b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u0259nd\u0259n sonra s\u0259n\u0259 g\u00fcc\u00fcm \u00e7atmayacaq, indid\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 \u00f6yr\u0259tdims\u0259, \u00f6yr\u0259tdim, sonra gec olacaq\u201d. \u0130ll\u0259r \u00f6t\u0259nd\u0259n sonra daha yax\u015f\u0131 anlad\u0131m atam\u0131n \u00e7ox vaxt dill\u0259, b\u0259z\u0259n is\u0259 \u015fill\u0259yl\u0259 anlatd\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131n q\u0259drini.<\/p>\n

Bac\u0131mla aram\u0131zda \u00fc\u00e7 ya\u015f f\u0259rq vard\u0131. \u00c7ox dala\u015fard\u0131q. H\u0259r \u015feyin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259, oyuncaqdan tutmu\u015f q\u0259l\u0259m-d\u0259ft\u0259r\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r, \u0259n bo\u015f s\u0259b\u0259bl\u0259rd\u0259n. Anam da, atam da \u00e7ox narahat olurdu, bir \u00f6m\u00fcr it-pi\u015fik kimi dolanaca\u011f\u0131q dey\u0259. Amma zamanla \u00e7ox mehriban olduq. Can\u0131md\u0131 o m\u0259nim.<\/p>\n

Bac\u0131m m\u0259kt\u0259bi bitirib universitet\u0259 imtahan ver\u0259n ili yay aylar\u0131nda i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259k q\u0259rar\u0131na g\u0259ldim. B\u00fct\u00fcn k\u0259ndin mal-qaras\u0131 bir yerd\u0259 otar\u0131l\u0131r. K\u0259nd camaat\u0131 da n\u00f6vb\u0259 il\u0259 nax\u0131ra \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r. Kims\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xmaq ist\u0259m\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 is\u0259 20 manat verib \u00f6z yerin\u0259 ba\u015fqas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6nd\u0259rir. M\u0259n d\u0259 nec\u0259 dey\u0259rl\u0259r, \u201cmuzdla\u201d nax\u0131ra \u00e7\u0131xmaq ist\u0259yirdim. Ail\u0259min m\u0259nim qazanaca\u011f\u0131m pula ehtiyac\u0131 yoxdu, atam sa\u011f olsun, \u00e7ox z\u0259hm\u0259tke\u015fdi, he\u00e7 n\u0259yimizi \u0259skik etm\u0259zdi. Amma i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259k ist\u0259diyimi ona dey\u0259nd\u0259 etiraz etm\u0259di, z\u0259hm\u0259t\u0259 al\u0131\u015fma\u011f\u0131m\u0131 ist\u0259yirdi. Xeyli i\u015fl\u0259dim o yay. Pulumu da y\u0131\u011fd\u0131m. \u0130lk qazanc\u0131m\u0131 n\u0259y\u0259 x\u0259rcl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yim evd\u0259kil\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn maraql\u0131 idi. M\u0259n d\u0259 S\u0259bin\u0259nin q\u0259bul cavab\u0131 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 ona telefon al\u0131b h\u0259diyy\u0259 etdim.<\/p>\n

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M\u0259suliyy\u0259tli u\u015faq<\/span><\/h2>\n

M\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259 m\u0259ni s\u00f6z\u0259baxan, m\u0259suliyy\u0259tli u\u015faq kimi tan\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131lar. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 atam\u0131n m\u0259ni m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 tam t\u0259chizatla haz\u0131rlamas\u0131ndan ir\u0259li g\u0259l\u0259n bir m\u0259suliyy\u0259tdi bu. D\u0259rs\u0259 ged\u0259c\u0259yim ili ne\u00e7\u0259 ay \u0259vv\u0259ld\u0259n atam m\u0259n\u0259 yazma\u011f\u0131, oxuma\u011f\u0131, sayma\u011f\u0131 \u00f6yr\u0259tdi. Sonradan Almaniyaya k\u00f6\u00e7\u0259n alman \u0259silli ibtidai sinif m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259m Nelli \u0130vanovna da \u00e7ox t\u0259l\u0259bkard\u0131, yax\u0131n qon\u015fu olsaq da, m\u0259n\u0259 he\u00e7 g\u00fcz\u0259\u015ft etm\u0259zdi.<\/p>\n

6-7-ci sinf\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7ox yax\u015f\u0131 oxudum. Amma sonra n\u0259s\u0259 mara\u011f\u0131m \u00f6ld\u00fc. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 o\u011frun-o\u011frun arxas\u0131nca baxd\u0131\u011f\u0131m o q\u0131z \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n idi. Art\u0131q m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 onu g\u00f6rm\u0259k h\u0259v\u0259siyl\u0259 gedirdim, qar\u015f\u0131ma \u00e7\u0131xanda is\u0259 gizl\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259 yer axtar\u0131rd\u0131m. Bel\u0259c\u0259 m\u0259kt\u0259bi bitir\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u00fcr\u0259yimi a\u00e7a bilm\u0259dim, \u00e7\u0259kindim, birc\u0259 Abidin x\u0259b\u0259ri vard\u0131. \u0130ndi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m ki, el\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 olub, u\u015faql\u0131q idi sad\u0259c\u0259. Ail\u0259 qurdu\u011funu e\u015fid\u0259nd\u0259 he\u00e7 eynimi pozmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m \u00e7\u00fcnki… Sonralar ba\u015f\u0131m i\u015f\u0259-g\u00fcc\u0259 nec\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131sa, he\u00e7 sevgi-m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t\u0259 vaxt\u0131m qalmad\u0131.<\/p>\n

Baytar, d\u0259ll\u0259k, yoxsa heyk\u0259lt\u0259ra\u015f?<\/span><\/h2>\n

N\u0259 is\u0259… 9-cu sinfi bitir\u0259nd\u0259 atam da, anam da i\u015fsiz-g\u00fccs\u00fcz, pe\u015f\u0259siz-s\u0259n\u0259tsiz qalaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 art\u0131q \u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 d\u0259rd etmi\u015fdil\u0259r. G\u00fcnl\u0259rin birind\u0259 bibimin yolda\u015f\u0131 da bizd\u0259 idi, m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259t g\u00f6rd\u00fc ki, m\u0259ni baytarl\u0131\u011fa qoysunlar. Heyvanlar\u0131 \u00e7ox sevir\u0259m, el\u0259 bitkil\u0259ri d\u0259, b\u00fct\u00fcn t\u0259bi\u0259ti. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259d\u0259n raz\u0131la\u015fd\u0131m. Amma k\u0259nd t\u0259s\u0259rr\u00fcfat\u0131 kollecin\u0259 q\u0259bul imtahan\u0131nda c\u0259mi 3 bal\u0131m \u00e7atmad\u0131, bel\u0259c\u0259 baytarl\u0131q sevdas\u0131 da ba\u015flamadan bitdi. Bundan sonra atam daha \u00e7ox fikir el\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131.
\nBir d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 atam\u0131n A\u011fsuda ya\u015fayan day\u0131s\u0131 qonaq g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Dedi, ay bac\u0131 o\u011flu, niy\u0259 d\u0259rd el\u0259yirs\u0259n, s\u0259n\u0259t q\u0131tl\u0131\u011f\u0131d\u0131 b\u0259y\u0259m? Qoyarsan bir d\u0259ll\u0259yin yan\u0131na, sa\u00e7, \u00fcz q\u0131rxma\u011f\u0131 \u00f6yr\u0259n\u0259r, m\u00fcs\u0259lmanda t\u00fck \u00e7oxdu, ac qalmaz. Atam bu fikird\u0259n yaman sevindi. Sa\u00e7 q\u0131rxmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn al\u0259tl\u0259r d\u0259 ald\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259, t\u0259cr\u00fcb\u0259d\u0259n d\u0259 ke\u00e7irdim bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259, pis d\u0259 al\u0131nm\u0131rd\u0131, ilk \u201cm\u00fc\u015ft\u0259rim\u201d d\u0259 el\u0259 atam idi.<\/p>\n

Amma pe\u015f\u0259 axtar\u0131\u015f\u0131 bununla da bitm\u0259di. H\u0259l\u0259lik m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 davam edirdim. Ehtiyatda da \u201cd\u0259ll\u0259klik\u201d s\u0259n\u0259ti vard\u0131.
\nYay g\u00fcn\u00fc idi, atam h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259, s\u00fcfr\u0259 arxas\u0131nda h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki yerind\u0259 oturmu\u015fdu, m\u0259n d\u0259 bekar\u00e7\u0131l\u0131qdan plastilind\u0259n Mikki Maus d\u00fcz\u0259ltmi\u015fdim. Atam bax\u0131b t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259ndi, m\u0259nim d\u00fcz\u0259ltdiyim\u0259 inana bilmirdi. Fiquru \u0259zib verdi ki, yenid\u0259n d\u00fcz\u0259lt, m\u0259n d\u0259 d\u00fcz\u0259ltdim. Ondan sonra \u0259l i\u015fl\u0259rimi diqq\u0259tl\u0259 izl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Nelli \u0130vanovnan\u0131n o\u011flu \u0130lqar R\u0259ssaml\u0131q Akademiyas\u0131n\u0131 bitirmi\u015fdi, onunla m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259tl\u0259\u015fdi. O da qabiliyy\u0259ti var, m\u00fctl\u0259q \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn dedi.<\/p>\n

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\u201cSa\u011fs\u0131z?\u201d<\/span><\/h2>\n

Son z\u0259ng g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc f\u0259da etm\u0259li oldum. S\u0259n\u0259d q\u0259bulunun son g\u00fcn\u00fc idi, Bak\u0131ya yolland\u0131m. Abidl\u0259 Sadiq m\u0259ni yola sald\u0131lar. Amma sonra bunun \u0259v\u0259zini \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131q, b\u00fct\u00fcn sinifl\u0259 birlikd\u0259 me\u015f\u0259y\u0259 getdik, m\u0259kt\u0259bi bitirm\u0259yimizi qeyd etm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn. Abid h\u0259min g\u00fcn ma\u015f\u0131n konvoyunun ba\u015f\u0131nda ged\u0259si oldu. S\u0259n dem\u0259, h\u0259l\u0259 d\u00fcz-\u0259m\u0259lli ma\u015f\u0131n s\u00fcr\u0259 bilmirmi\u015f, d\u00fcz yolda \u00e7uxura sald\u0131 ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131. \u00c7\u0131xarmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u0259ll\u0259\u015fdik.<\/p>\n

M\u0259kt\u0259b ill\u0259rind\u0259 n\u0259 Abidl\u0259, n\u0259 d\u0259 Sadiql\u0259 he\u00e7 ayr\u0131lmazd\u0131q. Bir d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 gec\u0259 qaranl\u0131qda velosiped s\u00fcr\u00fcr\u0259m, bunlar m\u0259n\u0259 ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 dedil\u0259r ki, g\u00f6z-g\u00f6z\u00fc g\u00f6rm\u00fcr, bir x\u0259ta \u00e7\u0131xacaq, d\u00fc\u015f velosipedd\u0259n. Qulaq asmad\u0131m. El\u0259 \u00fcstd\u0259n a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 g\u0259lirdim ki, tind\u0259n bir qad\u0131n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131 qar\u015f\u0131ma, saxlaya bilm\u0259dim, bir-birimiz\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131ld\u0131q. S\u0259n dem\u0259, qon\u015funun Moskvadan g\u0259l\u0259n qona\u011f\u0131 imi\u015f. \u00c7ox qorxdum, Abidl\u0259 Sadiq d\u0259 qa\u00e7\u0131b g\u0259ldil\u0259r. Bir onu xat\u0131rlay\u0131ram ki, qad\u0131n\u0131 yerd\u0259n qald\u0131r\u0131b, durmadan \u201csa\u011fs\u0131z, sa\u011fs\u0131z?\u201d dey\u0259 soru\u015furdum. Sa\u011f idi, ciddi bir \u015feyi d\u0259 yoxdu, \u201cnarahat olma, g\u00fcnah m\u0259nd\u0259di, yola q\u0259fil \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m\u201d dedi. Yenic\u0259 al\u0131nan \u015falvar\u0131m c\u0131r\u0131q-c\u0131r\u0131q olmu\u015fdu. Ev\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 boynumu b\u00fck\u00fcb \u201cay ana, \u015falvar\u0131m c\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131\u201d dedim. Anam da \u201cyax\u015f\u0131 ki \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259 olmay\u0131b\u201d cavab\u0131n\u0131 verdi.<\/p>\n

Ba\u015fqa planet<\/span><\/h2>\n

U\u015faqlardan ayr\u0131lmaq n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7\u0259tin olsa da, yeni perspektiv m\u0259ni h\u0259y\u0259canland\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. Amma nec\u0259 \u00f6hd\u0259sind\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yim m\u0259chuldu. R\u0259ssaml\u0131q Akademiyas\u0131na \u0259ks\u0259riyy\u0259t \u018fzimzad\u0259 ad\u0131na r\u0259ssaml\u0131q m\u0259kt\u0259bind\u0259n g\u0259lir, \u00c7uxuryurddan birba\u015fa akademiyaya ged\u0259n biri kimi ham\u0131dan geri qalmaqdan qorxurdum. Amma al\u0131nd\u0131.
\nAkademiya h\u0259yat\u0131 bir ba\u015fqa idi. \u0130\u00e7imd\u0259 he\u00e7 bilm\u0259diyim bir d\u00fcnya a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 sanki. \u0130ki ili ancaq bu s\u0259n\u0259ti \u00f6yr\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259 s\u0259rf etdim, n\u00f6vb\u0259ti iki ili is\u0259 \u00f6ry\u0259ndikl\u0259rimi t\u0259cr\u00fcb\u0259y\u0259 t\u00f6km\u0259k m\u0259rh\u0259l\u0259si oldu. Dig\u0259r t\u0259hsil ocaqlar\u0131ndan f\u0259rqli olaraq bizd\u0259 s\u0259rt qrafik yox idi, t\u0259dris emalatxana \u015f\u0259raitind\u0259 ke\u00e7irdi. Amma yen\u0259 d\u0259 s\u0259h\u0259r 9-dan gec olmayaraq akademiyada olurdum, b\u0259z\u0259n gec\u0259 10-11-\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r i\u015fd\u0259n ba\u015f qald\u0131ra bilmirdim. Bir i\u015f\u0259 ba\u015flayanda arada fasil\u0259 verm\u0259k \u00e7ox \u00e7\u0259tin olur. Y\u0259qin buna g\u00f6r\u0259dir ki, oxudu\u011fum m\u00fcdd\u0259td\u0259 30-dan \u00e7ox heyk\u0259lt\u0259ra\u015fl\u0131q n\u00fcmun\u0259si haz\u0131rlad\u0131m, \u00e7oxu da b\u00fcr\u00fcncd\u0259n, bir s\u0259rgilik i\u015f.<\/p>\n

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Bizim t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259liyimiz d\u0259 ba\u015fqa universitetl\u0259rd\u0259 oxuyan t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n f\u0259rqliydi. \u00c7ox g\u0259zm\u0259zdik, \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7ox \u00e7\u0131xmazd\u0131q, ged\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 \u0259sas\u0259n Q\u0131z Qalas\u0131n\u0131n \u0259t\u0259yind\u0259 yeni tap\u0131lan qaz\u0131nt\u0131n\u0131n \u0259traf\u0131na topla\u015fard\u0131q, s\u00f6hb\u0259t ed\u0259rdik. \u018fn b\u00f6y\u00fck \u0259yl\u0259nc\u0259miz is\u0259 emalatxanada \u00e7ay d\u0259sgah\u0131 qurmaqd\u0131. \u00c7ay\u0131 da \u0259lb\u0259tt\u0259 ki, m\u0259n d\u0259ml\u0259y\u0259rdim, bir g\u00fcn k\u0259klikotu, bir g\u00fcn mix\u0259k, bir g\u00fcn itburnu il\u0259… Otlardan yax\u015f\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131m \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r ax\u0131.<\/p>\n

Akademiyadak\u0131 dost \u00e7evr\u0259m d\u0259 tam ba\u015fqad\u0131. \u018fn birinci Anarla dostla\u015fd\u0131q, t\u0259kc\u0259 m\u0259nim kimi l\u0259zgi oldu\u011fu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yox, h\u0259m d\u0259 m\u0259nim kimi sakitliyi, susma\u011f\u0131 sevdiyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn. He\u00e7 dan\u0131\u015fmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z, amma yana\u015f\u0131 \u00e7ox rahat oldu\u011fumuz zamanlar olurdu. Zamik bizd\u0259n daha diriba\u015fd\u0131. El\u0259 hey m\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259 deyir ki, bu q\u0259d\u0259r d\u00fcz olmaq olmaz. Amma \u0259slind\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 \u00e7ox d\u00fcz o\u011fland\u0131. Bir pis c\u0259h\u0259ti vard\u0131, zibil qutular\u0131 il\u0259 he\u00e7 aras\u0131 yoxdu, \u0259lin\u0259 ke\u00e7\u0259ni yer\u0259 atard\u0131. Bir d\u0259f\u0259 kontur kart\u0131n\u0131 silib, \u015fifr\u0259ni telefona y\u00fckl\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259n sonra onu da yer\u0259 atd\u0131. He\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259d\u0259n, s\u0259ssizc\u0259 \u0259yilib g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcm, \u0259trafda zibil qutusu olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn cibim\u0259 qoydum. Yaman yer el\u0259di Zamik\u0259, \u201condansa s\u00f6ys\u0259ydin, daha yax\u015f\u0131 idi\u201d dedi. H\u0259min g\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra bu pis v\u0259rdi\u015fini t\u0259rgitdi. D\u00fczd\u00fc, bu s\u0259f\u0259r d\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn zibill\u0259ri \u00e7antas\u0131na y\u0131\u011f\u0131r, sonra da zibil qutusuna bo\u015faltma\u011f\u0131 unudurdu.<\/p>\n

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Nigar, Ma\u015fa, K\u0259nan m\u00fc\u0259llim, Rahib m\u00fc\u0259llim – bir-birimizin valideynin\u0259 \u00f6vlad ola bil\u0259c\u0259k q\u0259d\u0259r yax\u0131n olmu\u015fduq.<\/p>\n

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Bakalavr\u0131 yax\u015f\u0131 bitirdim, q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 diplomdan azca yan \u00f6td\u00fcm. Sonra magistraturaya s\u0259n\u0259d verm\u0259k q\u0259rar\u0131na g\u0259ldim. Amma evd\u0259kil\u0259r\u0259 dem\u0259dim. Bacarmasam, m\u0259yus olard\u0131lar, el\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm d\u0259 p\u0259rt olard\u0131m. Amma bu s\u0259f\u0259r d\u0259 bacard\u0131m. Q\u0259bul cavab\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xan kimi atama z\u0259ng vurdum, dedim ki, art\u0131q magistrantam, atam sevincind\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 s\u00f6y\u00fc\u015fl\u0259 t\u0259brik el\u0259di m\u0259ni, \u201cay k\u00f6p\u0259k o\u011flu, b\u0259s niy\u0259 dem\u0259mi\u015fdin?\u201d \u201cS\u00fcrpriz etm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdim\u201d dedim.<\/p>\n

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Sonra h\u0259rbi xidm\u0259t ba\u015flad\u0131. U\u015faqlar iki kitab h\u0259diyy\u0259 etmi\u015fdil\u0259r m\u0259n\u0259, andi\u00e7m\u0259 m\u0259rasimind\u0259 anamdan xahi\u015f el\u0259dim ki, g\u0259tirsinl\u0259r. H\u0259rbi xidm\u0259td\u0259, x\u00fcsus\u0259n d\u0259 \u0259g\u0259r c\u0259bh\u0259 b\u00f6lg\u0259sind\u0259s\u0259ns\u0259 bo\u015f vaxt dem\u0259k olar ki, olmur, amma yen\u0259 d\u0259 az-az oxuma\u011fa vaxt tap\u0131rd\u0131m. Bir g\u00fcn h\u0259rbi hiss\u0259miz\u0259 komissiya g\u0259ldi, b\u00fct\u00fcn kazarmada yoxlan\u0131\u015f apard\u0131lar, m\u0259nim kitablar\u0131m\u0131 \u0259limd\u0259n ald\u0131lar. \u00c7ox \u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fcm. H\u0259diyy\u0259 kitablard\u0131 ax\u0131.<\/p>\n

Martda m\u0259zuniyy\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yimi bilirdil\u0259r, amma 10-dan sonra g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdil\u0259r m\u0259ni. Ad g\u00fcn\u00fcmd\u0259 art\u0131q evd\u0259ydim. Yen\u0259 s\u00fcrpriz el\u0259mi\u015fdim, yaman da sevinmi\u015fdil\u0259r. H\u0259r\u00e7\u0259nd yanlar\u0131nda \u00e7ox qala bilm\u0259dim. H\u0259m s\u0259n\u0259d i\u015find\u0259n \u00f6tr\u00fc akademiyaya getm\u0259li idim, h\u0259m d\u0259 yar\u0131m qalan i\u015fim vard\u0131, onun \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 bir az i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259k ist\u0259yirdim, xidm\u0259td\u0259 d\u0259 he\u00e7 yad\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131rd\u0131. Odur ki, m\u0259zuniyy\u0259tin \u00e7ox hiss\u0259sini Bak\u0131da, akademiyada ke\u00e7irdim.<\/p>\n

Geri qay\u0131danda anam Novruz \u015firniyyat\u0131 haz\u0131rlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131, h\u0259m d\u0259 b\u00f6l\u00fckd\u0259ki u\u015faqlar\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131na yet\u0259c\u0259k q\u0259d\u0259r. Mart\u0131n 15-i \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m evd\u0259n, h\u0259rbi hiss\u0259y\u0259 qay\u0131tmaq vaxt\u0131 idi. Atamla vidala\u015fanda n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 Ko\u00e7etkovun iki misras\u0131 yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc: \u00ab\u0418 \u043a\u0430\u0436\u0434\u044b\u0439 \u0440\u0430\u0437 \u043d\u0430 \u0432\u0435\u043a \u043f\u0440\u043e\u0449\u0430\u0439\u0442\u0435\u0441\u044c, \u043a\u043e\u0433\u0434\u0430 \u0443\u0445\u043e\u0434\u0438\u0442\u0435 \u043d\u0430 \u043c\u0438\u0433\u00bb. Atam kar\u0131x\u0131b qald\u0131, anam is\u0259 \u00e7ox \u0259s\u0259bil\u0259\u015fdi, \u201co n\u0259 s\u00f6zd\u00fc?\u201d dedi.<\/p>\n

Anam \u00fcmumiyy\u0259tl\u0259 yaman h\u0259ssasd\u0131. S\u0259n dem\u0259, bir il \u0259vv\u0259l, h\u0259l\u0259 m\u0259n d\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc kursda oxuyark\u0259n yuxuda m\u0259nim g\u00fcll\u0259 il\u0259 vuruldu\u011fumu g\u00f6r\u00fcb, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 d\u0259rd edibmi\u015f, yuxular\u0131 \u00e7ox vaxt \u00e7in \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131 \u00e7\u00fcnki. Bu yuxunu m\u0259n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131, ancaq bac\u0131m bilirdi. Ged\u0259r ayaq anam\u0131 sakitl\u0259\u015fdirdim, g\u00fcl\u0259-g\u00fcl\u0259 \u201csad\u0259c\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l s\u00f6zl\u0259rdi\u201d, dedim, \u201calt\u0131nda m\u0259na axtarma\u201d.<\/p>\n

Bir d\u0259 s\u0259sl\u0259rini mart\u0131n 29-da e\u015fitdim. L\u0259zz\u0259tli \u015firniyyatlar\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 u\u015faqlar\u0131n t\u0259\u015f\u0259kk\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7atd\u0131rd\u0131m anama. Dedim ki, narahat olmas\u0131nlar, h\u0259r \u015fey yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131, \u0259sg\u0259rlikdi d\u0259.<\/p>\n

H\u0259min g\u00fcn Zamikl\u0259 d\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131m, S\u0259bi\u015f\u0259 v\u0259 bibiy\u0259 z\u0259ng vurma\u011fa art\u0131q imkan olmad\u0131.<\/p>\n

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\u018fsg\u0259rlikd\u0259 \u0259n \u00e7ox yax\u0131nl\u0131q etdiyim u\u015faqlardan biri M\u00fc\u015ffiq idi. Ayr\u0131-ayr\u0131 m\u00f6vqel\u0259r\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 yaz\u0131\u015fard\u0131q. \u018fn son bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn \u00f6nc\u0259 yazm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259. N\u0259s\u0259 son g\u00fcnl\u0259r c\u0259bh\u0259d\u0259 narahatl\u0131q hiss edirdim. B\u00fct\u00fcn q\u00fcvv\u0259l\u0259ri \u00f6n m\u00f6vqel\u0259r\u0259 g\u0259tirmi\u015fdil\u0259r. M\u00fc\u015ffiqin m\u0259ktubuna aprelin 1-i cavab yazd\u0131m, ehtiyatl\u0131 olma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 tap\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

El\u0259 h\u0259min g\u00fcn ax\u015fam h\u00fccum \u0259mri g\u0259ldi. D\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f ba\u015flad\u0131, g\u00fcll\u0259d\u0259n ba\u015f qald\u0131rmaq olmurdu, \u00fcst\u00fcm\u00fcz\u0259 dolu kimi ya\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. \u018fn son yad\u0131mdad\u0131 ki, rota komandiri H\u0259sr\u0259t Almazov aya\u011fa qalx\u0131b, \u201cir\u0259liii!\u201d dey\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130r\u0259li at\u0131ld\u0131q.<\/p>\n

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2016-c\u0131 ilin aprelind\u0259 \u201cd\u00f6rd g\u00fcnl\u00fck m\u00fcharib\u0259\u201d zaman\u0131 h\u0259lak olan v\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra \u201c\u0130gidliy\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259\u201d medal\u0131 il\u0259 t\u0259ltif olunan Samir Ka\u00e7ayev\u0259 h\u0259sr olunmu\u015f bu m\u0259qal\u0259 anas\u0131 \u018fmin\u0259 Ka\u00e7ayeva, atas\u0131 Ziy\u0259ddin Ka\u00e7ayev, sinif yolda\u015flar\u0131 Abid Tursunov v\u0259 Sadiq M\u00fct\u0259llimov, t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 yolda\u015flar\u0131 Zamik Rzayev v\u0259 Anar P\u0259nahovun xatir\u0259l\u0259ri \u0259sas\u0131nda haz\u0131rlan\u0131b.<\/em><\/p>\n

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